HAHAHAHA

Man oh man, does somone up there have a sense of humor or what!
If you look at my previous post, you'll see the quote from TSwift "Go and tell your friends that I'm obsessive and crazy that's fine. I'll tell mine your gay."

Well, of course you are.

No really, he is.

Don't get me wrong. I have nothing against homosexuals. I love 'em just as much and sometimes more than everyone else. But COME ON! My life right now is like a little cliche sitcom. The sad part is, I'm not being overdramatic. I need a reality series or something. This stuff is way too good to write!

Yeah, you don't need the details. Trust me. But, he's gay.


Busy weekend ahead. 15 hours at work and prom! And i'm sick. =/

Eh, I'll still rock it.

<3 Sambodiaaaaaa

Another, possibly and probably, pointless post.

Its too hard to divide the things I want to say about what has gone on with me into subsections. I'm over it (:
So here is a huge blurb. Read it if you feel so inclined.
My life has been so complicated and has really tested me within the last six months or so. I just got out of a tumultuous relationship that sort of kept me in my own little world. Now, as I'm emerging from my very own safe little cave, I'm a bit blinded by the sun. When you're in a relationship, things are okay. Period. I strongly reccomend them for those who have NOTHING ELSE TO FOCUS ON. See, this is my problem. I put everything I have into these guys that either a.) like me, but you know, not enough for me to "give them butterflies". (I'm sorry but WHAT THE HELL. Word to the wise boys: Never ever tell a girl that. It makes you look like a total baby. Just tell her you don't like her. Its easier.) or b.) have their minds on one thing. I know it sounds totally cliche, but it is SO true. Guys will pitch any old story to get in your pants. Sometimes, it can be entertaining. Other times, not so much. Anyway, like I said this is one huge blurb, i have decided to kind of push guys out of the picture for a while. I am truly over all of the BS and the pain. It isn't fair to the future me if I put my grades, my family and my friends on the back burner for some guy. And even though I try not to stress about boys, I know I still will. But the truth of the matter is, no one in high school knows what the want. NO ONE. Don't even try to tell me you do. Don't tell me you found your soul mate. Don't get engaged at age 18. Don't lose your pride. Just don't. I can guarantee that you, whoever you are, are better than that. Yes, i am a cynic. Sue me.

I have found it to be soo true, when it comes to my family at least, that it simply is not fair for me to put things that are important in my life to the side. My mom, sister, stepdad and dad know me so well. They have known something has been up. The truth is, my confidence was completely obliterated by a guy. To quote Taylor Swift "[she] gave everything she had to a boy who changed his mind." It really is true. Ladies, please please please don't do this. Especially those of you who know that you need your independence. Don't give it up and risk everything for a relationship that is more than likely going to end in heartbreak and emotionak turmoil. I mean really, why bother.

People tell me all the time, "Sam, you don't even seem to get mad. You seem to get even before you have the chance." I can't decide if getting even is the right thing to do. Of course I've dreamt about forking or fruit-looping the douchebag's lawn. Maybe a few hundred rolls of TP would teach him. But the truth is, my revenge is a whole lot nastier. Don't let me inside of your head. I'm smarter than I act (:
To quote Ms. Taylor Swift again: "There's no time for tears. I'm just sitting here planning my revenge. There's nothing stopping me from going out with all of your best friends. So go and tell your friends that I'm obsessive and crazy, that's fine, I'll tell mine you're gay." (:


She does have quite the way with words.

I just need some time to figure life out. With out distractions and without any additional pain.

PLUS, the stupid asshole ditched me for prom. So now I have the shoes, the dress, the hair and makeup appointments made and NO FRIGGIN' DATE!

Blahhhh. Reassure me that I'm better off, God. I know I am, I know I am.


----Sam

Chomping at the bit.

Here's to stupid titles for ever stupider posts! Haha (:
Here is some semi new and interesting info! Sorry I never post!

My Life as of January 4, 2010
-Work (Starbucks Barista)
-School (High School Junior)
-New Car (2010 Honda Civic Coupe!)
-License Countdown! (27 days!)
-Boyyy! (David <3)
-Best Friends (Literally haven't gone a day without seeing them for weeks!)
-Family (I've found myself enjoying playing the wii with them)
-Time Management (All of the above! Haha)
-Another Homecoming (Winter Theme: San Fran/Tha Bayy!)

Summaries of the above items!
Work: Ahh what to say about my lovely job. Well, it is stressful as all hell. I swear, I either get way too many hours or hardly any at all. But I really truly love my coworkers.

School: I'd say I've learned a lesson on this front. I am a huge procrastinator and I have an issue with completing homework. (New Years Resolution: No missed assignments!) I am learning to better myself on an academic level and on an adult level (i.e. scheduling sports, boy, friends, work and school work). I am actually super proud. I wrote two in class essays in AP American Lit and both were given outstanding grades and graded as if they were my actual AP test. Apparently, I am well equipped to handle the writing section. This especially surprised me coming from my teacher, who is not fond of my point of view, to put it nicely. :P

New Car/License: Awesome awesome awesome! Sorta procrastinating on my drivers training! finishing it within the next week or two! Wooooot!

David: I've known him since freshman year. He's a bit older. He asked me out about a month ago. (: Things are really good on that front.

BFFs: Basically, I have the best Best Friends in the world. Katie Machado, Dylan Corra, Emma Northcott, Donovan Ayon and Colleen Kenyon have pretty much saved my life. I don't know what I would do without them.

Family: Eh, things vary.

WINTER HOMECOMING: Ahhh! Another one bites the dust! I am sooo excited. I am playing a hobo in the stanky legg dance! :P

That's all for now. If you are interested in anything else you'd like to hear about, lemme know. Send a comment. (:


Lovelovelovelove
Samantha Nicole Harmon

Chris!

Screw Everything I've Written Before

This is my fresh start. Period. Seriously, so much has changed in my life since I last blogged. I'm sure some of the stuff I want to write about will anger some people. I don't care anymore.

Chapter One- I have been extremely overwhelmed lately. I have started going to therapy because of my relationship with my dad and have since been loosely diagnosed with depression and severe anxiety. Don't those words scare you? God, they scare me.

I don't want to deal with that right now, but it's a chapter anyone reading this has missed.

Chapter Two- It's weird. I feel like I have to explain to you, reader, everything about my life. But I'm not going to go into so many details anymore. Basically, I have gone through a stressful friend situation. Again. And I am just going to say names and everything now. Sue me. Haha

When I stopped being friends with Maite, it changed who I was completely. I never thought of myself as dependent until we broke apart and I realized that I had trouble standing up and functioning without her friendship. Well, I thought I'd never make that mistake again.
WRONG!

Lindsay and Alexa never really treated me like I belonged anyway. Who am I kidding, I knew I didn't. So, I've gotten sick of being the doormat. Sick of being the person to blame and the butt of the joke. And I branched away from them.

And now, I have this really amazing new friend, Dylan. She is an amazingly sweet person and I am so excited to have a friend like her. She, like me, got involved with people who treated her like less than she was. I am glad we found each other. It's definetly a start of a great friendship.

(And my heart goes out to my amazing new friend who left to Wyoming this morning because her Grandma passed. R.I.P.)

Chapter Three- Have you ever been completely in love with someone you know well but don't see all that often? Haha. Welcome to my life.


The end. For tonight.

Glad To Be Back,
Samantha Harmon

New Perspective

"I feel the salty waves come in. I feel them crash against my skin. And I smile as I respire because I know they'll never win. There is a haze above my tv that changes everything I see and maybe if I continue watching I'll lose that traits that worry me... Stop there- and let me correct it, I want to live a life from a new perspective. You come along because I love your face and I'll admire your expensive taste. And who cares, divine intervention. I want to be praised from a new perspective, but leaving now would be a good idea, so catch me up on getting out of here."
- Panic At the Disco
Good song. (: A lot of truth to it, don't you think?

Mexico- Summertime at It's Finest!

Sorry everyone. Its been almost exactly a month since I have posted a blog and there has been quite a bit to say about that period of time.

I think I should start at the first week of summer. My vacation to Club Med Ixtapa Pacific in Zihuatanejo, Mexico was amazing. It was my first foreign (if you could call it that) experience. When we arrived in Zihuatanejo, we had the worst cab ride of my life from the airport to the actual club, which took around twenty minutes. There were plenty of suburbans and vans that were not being used, but no, we were assigned to the smallest car possible. The four of us, my dad, sister, uncle and myself, we squished into this tiny car and our lugage was strapped into the trunk with bungee cords because it clearly would not fit.

One thing I noticed immediately when driving through the small cities to get to our destination was that there was a speed limit, but it was definetly more of a guideline. Apparently, Mexico is in the middle of an election right now, so there were many posters and signs campaigning for these men. I saw signs for four of the candidates, but apparently there are more. The cities we drove through to get to Club Med were tiny, but booming little places. One had four car dealerships! It was definetly a sight.

After the smoldering twenty minute drive to Club Med, we had finally arrived. Since there is quite a bit of violence going on in Mexico right now, the club took extra precautions and had armed guards at the entry. Once we had passed them, we were suddenly thrust into this amazing little turnabout. Obviously we were excited. The first real view we had seen all day, other than from the plane, was of the boundless ocean and the small Ixtapa Island out in the distance. Once we were unloaded at reception, we were offered ice cold lemonade and moist, cold towels to use to cool down. My sister, Hayley, and I loved it at first sight. The women we met at reception were G.O.'s. We soon learned that G.O. stood for gracious organizer and believe me, every single one of them lived up to the title.

Before I get too into my numerous G.O. stories (which are worth the wait), I want to tell you a little bit about Club Med and the are we were in. Club Med is a French company, so naturally, many of the guests and the G.O.'s speak French. I found it a great opportunity to practice what I had learned so far, which apparently was a lot more than I had thought. Club Med Ixtapa Pacific recently went through a 27 million dollar renovation. Everything looked new enough to look cool, but just worn enough to be inviting! Our room was amazing. The view was great and we overlooked the soccer field and lagoon. The building our room was in was called Iguana, because right outside by the lagoon, there were hundreds! They would just walk in the grass and straight through the walking path. It was amazing!

Now, after we had settled in (hardly), my sister and I really wanted to go to the beach. The water in Mexico is perfect. It isn't hot but it isn't Santa Cruz, either. That first day, we didn't go in the water because we were deathly afraid of sting rays and other ocean creatures. We got over it fairly quickly. Everynight at Club Med, the G.O. team, consisting of about 200 twenty and thirty somethings from all over the world, put on a show. Our first night, we missed the hip hop show but arrived in time for family game night, which was a blast. This is where we meet Marina, 'our G.O.' as we called her. Marina, Hayley, and I immediately clicked. She was fun and had us do some crazy stuff. She was like a mentor. She taught us the ropes (i.e. which guys liked tourists, who was skanky, who had hooked up, who was married, etc.). It was so fun and I speak for both my sister and myself when I say that I miss her dearly.

Marina wasn't the only G.O. that our family bonded with. Club Med offers tons of activities throughout your stay. The day of the first nighttime poker tournament, they had offered poker lessons. My family loves poker, but we aren't great at it. So we showed up to the lesson. Topher, a redhead from Louisiana, was the G.O. who ran everything tennis and poker. We instantly bonded with him. (I even had a dream about marrying him during the week! Hahaha). Topher was really awesome and I miss him too! We played in two poker tournaments during our stay, which was fun for me because it's like, 2 a.m. and everyones still at the bar playing poker. I felt extremely grown up.

Another G.O. who affected my stay a lot was Damien. Damien is the all american boy who ran the sports and games and whatnot. When I first heard about pool games, I was like. "Uhmmm. NO!" But I ended up getting into it on our second day there and I beat my family every single day, which I didn't let them forget. Damien called me 'all star' because apparently I scored the most on my team in two out of three point games. (Water basketball and water polo twice!) Later that week I beat my sister at kayak tog of war and at kayak gladiator! I even got a medal! I'm so proud of it haha.

Patrick and Lucas were awesome too. Patrick is the G.O. trainer and HOTTEST one there. Lucas did the flying trapeeze, which I will tell you about in a later post. Lucas was super nice and funny. Patrick was funny and cheezy and cute! I really enjoyed meeting all of them and we still keep in touch! I will be posting some pictures and a lot more stories later on this week!